Part of the Problem

My apologies in advance for the use of the word I hate more than anything.


The message below was in my Instagram feed today. It made me angry because we should not still be having this discussion in 2014. This word has not elevated black men at all it has just sustained a cripple self-pitying mentality. A mentality that has us shooting up our own community and taking our neighborhoods hostage

Niggas certainly don’t vote…and because they don’t vote you end up with a Ferguson, MO. A strong black population abandoned by their political leaders even though they are the majority because they have no representation. Less than 5% of the black people living in Ferguson voted.  Men vote and organize not just when a tragedy happens but always. There have been some strong intelligent black men leading in Ferguson. They are not niggas.

Honestly, where has this word got us? Sure, if you are a rapper it gets you a nice home, cars, all the big booty hoes you can dream of but at the end of the day what respect are you getting as a man as a leader?

When I hear a black man refer to himself as a nigga, I hear someone who has given up on being a master of his destiny. I hear someone accepting a level of failure and self-hate that is worse than what any man can put upon him.

You can try to own the word as much as  you want but every black man is hurt when it is hurled by a white man so those wounds still have not healed and the word still holds a wicked power of hatred. We can’t make a word used to demoralize us and make it good. It just will never be done. EVER.

Stop trying to be a nigga and be a man and read your history. You are so much more than that ugly word.  We are so much more than this ugly word. This one word is a large part of our community issues, our self-esteem issues, our self-image issues. Let it go.

Yes, innocent men get shot but nigga’s get hunted. 


XIf there is an injustice you must fight. If one is attacked we all are attacked. Don’t destroy your own community in anger but make it stronger with love and unity. Looting is not settling a score, its looting. If you are angry stand up like a man and say it, shout it, demand your respect and you will get it. You may not be liked but you will be a man. Speak up for your ancestors. Speak up for your families. Speak up for your community. Speak up for your person-hood, your future, your generations. Say it or shout out but say something.


RIP Ms. Lauren Bacall

She was one of my style icons. Loved her style and snarky charm. When I was going through my love of MGM stars I read a book about her and Humphrey Bogart, for Hollywood it was a beautiful love story.  She died today at 89 of a stroke.


“I think your whole life shows in your face and you should be proud of that”

Lauren Bacall

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being liberalLB BattlesClassy, smart, and beautiful. Goodbye Ms. Bacall you were one cool dame!


This Thing Called Depression: RIP Robin Williams

I have been trying to understand depression for quite some time now and its difficult. I have learned through reading articles and personal blogs that it just isn’t an easy fix. I have learned that no amount of money, fame, nor acclamation in one’s life can stop it. I have learned that it is a very serious disease and we all need to discuss it more. I have learned that people who suffer depression can not just snap out of it. Their darkness may be something I can never understand and it’s not a bad thing for me to be grateful I don’t have the disease. My sympathy and empathy goes out to anyone who suffers from this debilitating disease.

Our focus is on Mr. Williams now because we are all shocked that someone who made us laugh and forget out problems suffered from problems he could not find a cure for. I am hurt by this loss of a man I have watched since I was a child. I watched Mork and Mindy when it was on ABC and not Nick at Nite. I loved his stand up and movies. I’m very sad to know his space is now empty in the world. RIP Mr. Williams


“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone, it’s not.

The worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel all alone.”

Robin Williams



Every man must do two things alone; he must do his own believing and his own dying.

Martin Luther

Netflix Weekend

This weekend I indulged in my foreign film addiction. I know many people complain about the lackluster library of Netflix but I love it. I think the Indie and Foreign film selections are awesome, where else would I see them otherwise.
Friday night I started with Hidden. A BBC television four part series. I’m a fan of Philip Glenister after watching him in Life on Mars and Ashes to Ashes so I’ll check out anything he headlines.
Hidden is a bit of a political thriller. Glenister plays a lawyer who is hired by another lawyer to find a witness. Of course nothing is as it seems and there is a lot of murder, a lot of unanswered questions. It was good and like most Netflix watchers I watched all four episodes in one  setting. Firm B- if you like political thrillers.
Early Saturday morning I  watched South American, film The Last Days (Los Ultimos Dias). A mysterious epidemic spreads across the planet where humans develop an irrational fear of open spaces which causes instant death. The world is stuck indoors and the only mean’s of travel is underground, through subways and sewers. Marc is stuck in his office in Barcelona and tries to get home to his girlfriend and is assisted by a co-worker trying to get to the hospital to see his father. They run into gangs and chaos. I liked it perfect for a Saturday morning while I ate my breakfast. C+
Downfall is a German movie based on the final days of Adolf Hitler. I started watching it at 3am Sunday morning thinking I’d just watch till I fell asleep and continued it for my Sunday afternoon. I watched the whole thing. It was powerful and Bruno Ganz, first movie I saw with him was the Italian movie Bread and Tulips, one of my faves,was riveting. We all know Hitler was crazy but to see Ganz’s portrayal of  him unraveling as defeat is inevitable kept me stuck to my laptop in the wee hours of the morning.  After watching the movie I immediately went to my Amazon and ordered The Rise and Fall of the Third Reich.  Firm A and a definite must see.
Netflix Weekend